The Wings of Freedom

i looked at the sky

Realized, i have no wings..

heard the kukkoo bird ,

it made me wonder why can't i sing...

 I wondered !walking on the solitary road..

met Asif and i thought....

this little trouble master has a life that can shrink...

something hit my head and i was in vain..

 i missed my wings again.....

walked a little ahead ,could feel the cold breeze

i envied the birds and gravity became my enemy..

my flight to nowhere was getting delayed....

The silent moment...

stuck somewhere between the dusk and the dawn.

I heard, my hearts whisper...

i always wanted to fly ,nothing could hopld me back.

I am free because the soul cannot be caged..

Realization dawned upon me..

i could feel my wings and the zeal to fly

the dreams were my invisible wings

my thoughts were the magical carpet....

I dont miss my wings anymore.

they are inside me and inside you..

Freedom is me ,freedom is you....

P.S :-Asif ,5 year-old street nurtured kid, i met 2 days back and realized that the rockstar lies inside you and the freedom can easily be gained with thoughts..

Wish it was just another game of hide and seek !

   I sit and scribble ,try to get back to a time when you existed for me in real.It has been long and i am becoming oblivious to your smell. You were not there all these years but there is a part of me which is left with you when i left that small fairytale land .
   I remember all of it from the strangest square handwriting of yours to the music we used to hum upon.I try to recall  the festive time,the swings and the playful memories.You were somewhere there even in your absence.

  I feel helpless because i know the hide and seek is for real this time .You are hiding somewhere behind the stars above.You stare at me constantly.I can feel your gaze.I wish on stars to give me one last chance to feel your existence.When i think of my childhood i think of you.Wherever you are in heaven above ,i pray you get peace.I will always remember you .Your memories are my most innocent asset .You are my unwept tear.


Life is happening all the time .Why cant,t we confess our emotions when we have all the time in the world ,say what we feel ,do what we really want .Love and be loved .Why we like to live in illusion?Why we let ego take toll on our relationships? Why we complicate what is already so complex ?Why we wait for the right moment ?Why we believe in uncertain things more when we can be certain by taking a little risk?Why we let go of people who can make all the difference ?Why we value things more then people? Why we manipulate what our heart feels? Why can't we be we ?Why we wait for answers when we don't even bother to ask questions!
I ask ,"why?" 




Dedicted to a very dear friend P.Gupta .Thankyou for sharing something so special .
   
  

Chord

The heavenly deep blue waves are caressing me again ,

reminding me of you and those years passed by !

the innocent memories are still carved in my heart 

your touch still feels so pure and divine..


if heavens exists somwhere up there ,i pray !

you never have a day without Sun smiling at you..

i still wonder ,how are you moving on with life ..

still you are part of my dreams and unspoken wishes 

i wish i could buy some time, take a flight back in my past 

where you still are the prettiest little angel ..

the music these strings create in the moment so fragile ..
connects the chord of my heart to yours under the same sky.
when letting you go is the only way to have you forever ..
all you have to remember is , i am still somwhere there ..


Dedicated to the  two most beautiful people in my world !

Osh-Adi 

Natural Jewel !

Eternity !

Suddenly i wished .....

Suddenly i wished ,i could give another chance to me 
 the spark to love ,rekindled again inside ...
walked on the road to nowhere with eyes blind-folded
i tripped again,without realizing the pain of my bleeding foot


being oblivious to the pain inside, i still hoped for a better tomorrow
strolled down the field ,tried to catch some breeze 
 illusion made me fly with ecstasy of emotions..
 the world  started mocking at me .


i wept !
then i realized ,
noone has ever flown sky high without wings..


i wished again ,
the sand started blowing vigourously ,blocking my vision
wanted to pause the moment, hold him ,
couldnt utter a word as i lost my direction ..

i closed my eyes , now the pain was excruciating.


 Alas!
 i dreamt again ,with my eyes open !

p.s how can u loose something ,you never had !

Realization !

Last Night while reading a short story from 'THE BIBLE' ,I read a line which says ,"Jesus Christ could save the world but he couldnt save himself''.This very statement hit me so hard that i realized

''how strange life can get at times!
sometimes you can go on lecturing your friends for hours and save them from  misery and when it comes to you ,you are far too vulnerable yourself..''

Incident that taught me what freedom actually means !

'When i was really young,one fine day ,my Dad got me a Parrot.It was one of the most exciting days ,as i was extremely fond of birds.The caged Parrot was aboout to get attacked by a cat ,for its safety my Mother let it free.When i came back home,on realizing my parrot is nowhere to see,i cried.Years passed by and i realized how difficult it is to survive when your freedom is taken away.'